Hello girls and boys!

Fast number two started at around 2 today...that was 4 hours, 40 min ago, and I'm still going strong. 

We had chineese food for dinner tonight, which usually makes me sOOOO hungry, but looking at it and all the grease....ugh I wanted to throw up.  SO I went to the gym instead.

Granted, I had only eaten 400 calories, and I was coming off a 57 hour fast....so I got tired really easy.  I did weights, which is good cause I havn't done them in forever.  I'm gonna do some sit ups later tonight...and I burned my 400 cals I ate on the cardio machine.  Yay for that. 

This fast won't be as long- It can't cause of my lunch thingie on thursday, so it'll just be...like....46 hours.  That's not TOO shabby....I better lose 2 more pounds! Crazyness!

It's kinda fun...coming up with reasons NOT to eat.  I actually do have some valid one, tests, stomache aches, too busy, not feeling well, to tired....you know. :)

I hope you all are doing well too.

Keep up the happy attitude, all of you, ok?

<3, me.

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I just ended the fast at 57 hours...I woke up and I tried to sit up and I got sooo dizzy and I felt soooo sick, so I went down and got some cereal....aw man I felt like shit.  So only go as far as your body allows, mmmk? :)  57 isn't bad, that's TWICE as long as my longest one.  Yay!  I lost 2 more pounds, bringing the fast weight loss to 4.5 pounds.  awesome.

Have a great day lovlies! :)

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Current fast time:  47 hours, 30 minutes. 

Awesomeness.

It's not really even that hard for me.  I mean yeah, there were a few hunger pangs, but I'll tell you girls what the best things to fix those are:

*Sugar Free Flavor Icee Pops (5 calories for TWO popcycles!!)
*Water
*Drinking hot tea as fast as you can
*Writing down why you are on the fast and how it will make you feel to acomplish it vs. give up and eat...
*chew gum.  A lot. :)

So there it is!! My total calories for today:
*2 Sugar free candies = 16 cals
*2 pieces of gum= 5 cals
*iced tea w/ sweet and low= 0 cals
*2 popcycles= 5 cals
*8 glasses of water= 0 cals
*5 cups of hot tea w/ 2 tsp skim milk= 25 cals
*vitamin= 10 cals

Grand total= 64 calories!! Wow!! Crazyness.

I lost 2.5 pounds yesterday!  Sweet.  I'll probably lose another 2.5 today, which is 5 pounds in 2 days.  Nice.  I have a lunch date on Thursday (damn those boys!), so here is my plan:

*Fast until tomorrow at 1 (or longer, depending on my mood), bringing the fast to at least 61 HOURS!!!
*eat less then 500 cals tomorrow
*fast wed. to look good for thursday
*eat less then 800 cals thur
*eat as LITTLE as POSSIBLE all weekend!! (Depends on who's watching me this time, you know?)

Girls- you all can DO this if you want!! My longest fast ever was 30 hours.  Here I am, at almost 48!! That's EIGHTEEN hours longer!! YAY!  I have this incrediable high right now, like I can do anything!! It's nice b/c I promised myself a break from working out since I'm not eating, so it's motivation to fast.  I mean working out is good for you, and sometimes fun, but my workouts are like...oh whoops I just threw up again! yay.

Sooo tonight, another dinner thing at my sorority which I skipped to go study...someone SAVED me a slice of raspberry cheesecake!! I wanted to die.  I didn't eat it though!! Nope, it's sitting in my fridge, waiting for tomorrow! :) Yay for that.  

OK, well I hope you all are doing well!  You are all beautiful!! 

<3, me! 

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Hello....Today's fast has been sucessful so far!! Lots of temptations (my mom, goodies at church...ect), but I havn't caved in yet!! All I've had is water, diet coke, one sugar free lifesaver, and a crystal lite slirpee.  Total calories so far...150.  I might have some soup later tonight if I get super hungry...lots of homework, sucky sucky.  So that would bring it to 210.  All liquids. Not bad.  I'm going to fast tomorrow too, then eat less then 500 cals tuesday, fast wenesday, then thursday I have a lunch apoitment, and I always eat dinner with my friends.  So thursday's going to be sucky...maybe I can just get salads both times.  That won't be too too bad...right?  Right.  Then Friday, Sat, and SUnday...eat as little as possible. I don't know if I'll be able to do a full out FAST b/c my friends...but maybe I can just get soup...hmm. 

Lots o' love.

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When I get back to school, I am going to become Perfection.

Yes, we all know it isn't possible to be perfect, but like my mother always says, "When you put your mind to it, you can do anything."

Joy!  Thanks for the inspiration, mom. 

Lots of inspiration from my family this week...including, but not limited to...

"How do you eat so much and stay so skinny?"

"You don't eat enough.  Eat more."

"Why are you always so cold?"

 "You look like you've lost so much weight...you look beautiful!"

"Haha, what, are you anorexic or something?"

Ha.  Am I anorexic?  Or something?  I don't know.  You tell me.

What do you call it when you are constantly counting calories, obsessivly weighing yourself, and no matter how hard you try, your life is centered around food?

Or when you cry yourself to sleep at night because you ate more then 500 calories? Or when you make yourself work out until you are queazy and dizzy, then do 15 min more just to "teach yourself a lesson, you weak fat pathetic loser."

Hmm.  Is it abnormal to think that if you could just be skinny, then all your problems would be solved?  Examples of things that would be better for me:

*I could witness to people better...no one listens to me cause I'm a fatty.

*I could wear all the cute clothes I can't squeeze my lard butt into.

*My family would stop their dumb comments.

*I would be HAPPIER

*I could walk away from this...and eat somewhat normal.

*I could finally get the guy. 

See?  My life would rock if I were skinny! Seriously, If I was....I don't know what I would do all day long!  My life is encompassed by it. 

I can't wait until tomorrow!! Back at school-- no one to tell me what to (or what not to) eat, how long I can  (or can't) work out, blah blah blah blah!!! YAY!  I mean, I LOVE my family to DEATH, but damn!!! Sometimes I just need some alone time.

*sigh*

I went grocery shopping today!! I stocked up on lots of stuff....lots of liquids!! I might do a liquid fast tomorrow (assuming my parents don't make me eat!!) until....hmmm.  I guess until I cave in.  Which might not be ever...I have more will power and determination then I've ever had. 

I will lose 5 pounds this week.  I will not fail.  I will be beautiful.  I will be PERFECT.